Deck Affair - Month 2 Begins

I used my Tarot of the Master without fail, every day in January. Some days I would forget, and have to pop out of bed at night to do a quick shuffle and pull, and then hop back into bed. But I haven't skipped a day. However, if someone were to ask me if I had used this deck 31 times last month, I'd laugh and want to say "No way!" It doesn't feel like I've used this deck much at all, but I've typed a one-line entry in my Deck Affair journal every day, so I have proof.

I pulled two cards today.

What have I learned in the past month by using this deck every day?

IIII Coppe

I feel like I haven't learned a damn thing, to be honest. Like the lady in this card, I've got a lot going on. Pots of projects everywhere. Hands full. So my time spent with this deck has more often than not been either a last minute thing, or a super speedy draw, just to get it done. So if I have learned anything, it is that I need to set aside more time each day so that I can actually get something out of this experience. Also, I have learned that I do have it in me to remain committed to something, even when I'm not seeing benefits just yet. Gives me some food for thought regarding my eating habits and lack of exercise!



What will I learn this second month, using this deck every day?

Caval di Bastone

My first thought when I saw this card was that my deck would be traveling with me. But I'm not planning to go anywhere this month, so I don't think that's what it's about. This card, to me, is definitely about movement. So I think this means that I will begin to see progress in my relationship with this deck, provided I give it the time it deserves. Onward and upward, dear Vacchetta!


It's funny to me that I have only posted to this blog six times so far, and both of these cards have previously shown up in that time.

~Kiki

F-E-A-R Spread

I created a new spread, designed to expose and strip away one's fears. I used the acronym FEAR and its popular correspondence: False Evidence Appearing Real.

F-E-A-R Spread

1. False: A fear that you have which is false or unfounded.
2. Evidence: The proof you have that this fear is false.
3. Appearing: Why it appears otherwise (why this fear appears real to you).
4. Real: What is the real truth of the matter.


Here's the reading I did for myself today:


1. False: A fear that I have which is false or unfounded.

Caval di Bastone

It's amazing that this card came up, because it illustrates one of my largest and most consuming fears at the moment. Most specifically, this is the card that represents my desire to move out of state. I have, indeed, a strong fear, or series of fears, attached to this desire. I fear that I won't ever be able to make this move. Or that it won't it won't happen fast enough. Or that there are too many surrounding circumstances that need to change before it can happen. Or that I will never have enough money put together. Because it is something I want so much, my fears that it might not happen seem to reproduce and multiply like rabbits!


2. Evidence: The proof I have that this fear is false.

V Denari

This angel is holding a board displaying money growing on vines. The board is so big that it covers most of his body. His difficulty or problem appears to be that he has more money than he can handle, which seems a nice problem to have. So the proof that I have that my fears aren't based on reality is that there is always enough money circulating in this universe. I just haven't aligned properly with that vibration. The coins are growing on vines, so there is always potential for financial growth. People move every day. I, myself, have made countless moves from one state to another. This is not an impossibility. I have faced this challenge in the past before with ease. So clearly, it is something that I can do again. I also see in this card someone carrying a large, heavy box (one of the less joyful aspects of moving.)


3. Appearing: Why it appears otherwise (why this fear appears real to me).

III Denari

It's funny that this card showed up under "Appearing" because whenever I see this card, my first thought is "appearance". The keyword is "depiction", and I see items set up in and against the tree as props, set there as some sort of display. My fears appear real to me, because I have set things up to look as though this is the truth. I look around at my reality as though it is set in stone, rather than looking at potential and possibilities. This is something I struggle with, and am actively trying to overcome this year. I need to realize that what I observe is not indicative of where I am headed, provided I change my perspective and expectations.


4. Real: What is real. The truth of the matter.

I Spada

Another synchronous positioning, as I often see the Ace of Swords as a "truth". The wreath is a symbol of victory. This card is titled "conquest". The truth is, I can do whatever I set my mind to (and my heart on). Deep down, I know this. But for some reason, I have been choosing to focus on the opposite. I have been humoring my weaknesses rather than my strengths, allowing doubt to creep in and stomp on my confidence. But the reality depicted by this card is that I've got this in the bag! I just need to change my perspective on the whole thing. The sword is a symbol of power... however, it won't unsheathe itself. Its power lies in the hand that hold it, which means that this comes solely from within me, unrelated to outer circumstances. I must regain my confidence and knowledge that I can and will succeed.

~Kiki